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Auberon: Introduction
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“Remind me,” I said, tears filling my eyes, “remind me to write a story about us…”
I lie in this big sleigh bed, phone grasped in one hand (the one where my liquor bottle once resided). A few minutes tick past and I sit up, head whirling from bipolar philosophies that spin in my head on an almost regular orbit. I take a few moments to notice how my underwear matches: white bra and regular bikini panties. Moonlight dances with candle flame reflections across a pale stomach, no longer flat and belonging to a child. I swing my woman’s thighs over the side of the bed. My hands are curled and limp in my lap. I think, They belong to someone dead.
They belong to me.
I let that fact settle into place in my brain, followed logically by just who I am. A few dozen names scatter across the recesses of my mind, but I can only understand a handful of them, mostly the ones spoken by familiar voices.
Morgaine’s worry will grow. She’s shouting for me as I sit here, her crow’s wings flapping in accompaniment to her shrill cries of Helena! I can see her. But I stay hidden.
I look at the vanity. I see only a paper cut-out girl, with cheap shiny buttons for eyes. But if I stand just right, I see a goddess too great for the world of man. And if I slouch in that position, I look human. The names continue to run through my head.
Shit, I am lost in my own world of thought again. Nostalgia is the name of the sea broiling in greeting in front of me.
The deep ocean surges up before me, and I am taken, unresisting, to its depths. I don’t struggle or writhe as life lets out of me. I let the light come in and obliterate my vision. My brain allows my lungs the luxury of not having to breathe anymore. My heart, it says, can stop hoping.
I can remember the conversation. It had such loops and twists. I hold together all my theories with twisty ties and Elmer’s glue. They’re not meant to be permanent.
But I didn’t lie.
I do remember.
I lie in this big sleigh bed, phone grasped in one hand (the one where my liquor bottle once resided). A few minutes tick past and I sit up, head whirling from bipolar philosophies that spin in my head on an almost regular orbit. I take a few moments to notice how my underwear matches: white bra and regular bikini panties. Moonlight dances with candle flame reflections across a pale stomach, no longer flat and belonging to a child. I swing my woman’s thighs over the side of the bed. My hands are curled and limp in my lap. I think, They belong to someone dead.
They belong to me.
I let that fact settle into place in my brain, followed logically by just who I am. A few dozen names scatter across the recesses of my mind, but I can only understand a handful of them, mostly the ones spoken by familiar voices.
Morgaine’s worry will grow. She’s shouting for me as I sit here, her crow’s wings flapping in accompaniment to her shrill cries of Helena! I can see her. But I stay hidden.
I look at the vanity. I see only a paper cut-out girl, with cheap shiny buttons for eyes. But if I stand just right, I see a goddess too great for the world of man. And if I slouch in that position, I look human. The names continue to run through my head.
Shit, I am lost in my own world of thought again. Nostalgia is the name of the sea broiling in greeting in front of me.
The deep ocean surges up before me, and I am taken, unresisting, to its depths. I don’t struggle or writhe as life lets out of me. I let the light come in and obliterate my vision. My brain allows my lungs the luxury of not having to breathe anymore. My heart, it says, can stop hoping.
I can remember the conversation. It had such loops and twists. I hold together all my theories with twisty ties and Elmer’s glue. They’re not meant to be permanent.
But I didn’t lie.
I do remember.
My newest stab at prose. I don't intend to take this to full novel length, but it shall be a decent read in the end. This is the introduction. "Auberon" is the working title for this story, and it will take on a final title upon its completion. "Auberon" is non-fiction, with a bit of tweeking and embellishment here and there. If you truly desire to know truth from fact, ask me.
This intro will probably be rewritten.
This intro will probably be rewritten.
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I love this story, and am looking forward to reading more. Very good descriptions, and the style of writting and the story itself is good.